Haziran 17, 2020

My desires

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My desiresI have always been dreaming to be with a man. In my real life i act as a normal boy but in my I dream about being a girl. I am a 23 years old, 177 height and 65 kilos. I am slim and i dont have much hair on my body or my face. When i was very young I remember playing with my neighbor who was 1 year older than me and physically more developed. We were playing different role games and i was always the girl, the mother or the wife and he was always the father the husband or the boyfriend. Our innocent games changed when i found a porn magazine under the bed of my parents. I stole it and explored it carefully together with my friend ( I will call him Elon). There were naked people acting in a way that i have never seen someone acts. The women who were so beautiful had huge breasts and big booties, the man were muscular and with huge cocks and big balls. The women were sucking the cocks of the men and the men were puting their dicks inside the womens’ pussy and ass. It was the first time I see a pussy. It wasnt something that impressed me so much. It was the men cocks that blow my mind. They were huge compring to mine. Maybe bigger than my arm. I couldn’t stop thinking of what i saw in this magazine for days and me and my friend were spanding hours looking at it. Unfortunately after a few days my parents noticed that the magazine is missing and found out who stole it. They took it back and i was punished. Maybe a week later my friend told me to come at his house and that he had something to show me. I went there and he brought me to his brother’s room. But there was somebody inside and we didnt enter we just put our ears on the door and listened. We heard somebody moaning quietly. There were two people in the room. A man and a woman. Elon told me they are his older brother canlı bahis siteleri and sister. We got bored after a while but my penis was hard. I wished i could see what is happening in there. We went to the attic of Elon’s house. We played something for a while and then he asked me if I want to roleplay like in the magazine i showed him. I told him i want but i dont know how. We were two boys and in the magazine there were girls. He told me i can act as a girl its not a problem. So he made me get naked and i lied facedown on an old bed. He started touching my butt. Squeezing it and slaping it . I liked the feeling. I felt pretty and sexy(i didnt know what sexy mean but i felt it for sure)then he made me stay on my knees with my head down on the bed. My butt was pointing up. And i felt the cold air on my butthole. The feeling was new and exciting my little cock was rock hard. My friend pulled his cock out and started rubbing it between my cheeks. It felt wonderfull. The skin between my cheeks was very delicate and the feeling of his hard dick made me tremble. He tryed to put his dick in my ass but he couldnt. After that he asked me to change my position and stay on my knees with his cock in front my face. It was the first time i see an other person dick live. It was beautiful and for sure bigger than mine. It looked huge but when i think now it maybe was 15 centimetres. I felt butterflies in my belly. I touched it and stroked it. The feeling of the soft of skin on his hard dick was nice. He asked me to suck it but it didnt feel right and i didnt. Maybe i would have liked it if he had forced me. After few minutes of me stroking him he started trembling and pushed my hand of his dick. He told me he doesnt want to play anymore. We continued our games for tipobet güvenilir mi couple of years and in this period we were playing different scenarios . A doctor who is healing my hurted butt or a robber who enters my house and ****s me. However he never really fucked me it just couldnt enter . Neither i ever sucked his cock idk why. Once when we played our game his brother saw us.Elon was “r****g me” stroking his cock between my ass cheeks . I was playing a sweet girl begging him to stop. We were againg in the attic of his house when i saw his brother entering. He saw us and freezed. He was watching us , Eleon didnt see him he countinued what he was doing and i was also acting like i didnt see him. When we finished his brother showed himself and told us my mother is looking for me. I was affraid that maybe he will tell my mom but he didnt. However this was our last game. Maybe the brother of Elon told him something or maybe he told his prents but Elon never asked me again to play our game. With the time passing i started understanding what we were really doing and i started feeling guilty. I shared everything to my mum but i lied her my friend forced me, i was ashamed to tell her i liked it. I convinced her that we wont do it again and made her promise me she wont tell Elons parents about our games with him. After i told her everthing i felt better. The years went and i was a teenager. I found the porn online and i was mastrubating all the time. However it wasnt enough for me. I always remembered what we did with Elon and it i always got a hardon when i tought about it. In such a moment i tryed my mothers underwear and it was amazing. I started dressing up everyday. I learned how to put make up and i shaved all my body. I was so excited tipobet giriş looking at the mirror. There was a pretty little girl. I have faminine face and almost no hair on it. I left my hair grow longer. It siuted me perfectly. When dressed up completely i was mastrubating and putting fingers in my tight ass. After some time i dont know how but i think that my mother found out about what i was doing. My father made me cut my hair . And i heard my mother talking with my grandmother telling her that maybe i will bring a boyfriend home and not a girlfriend.I got really ashamed and stopped crossdressing. I shaved my head and started acting more masculine. I git into a lot of trouble and a lot of fights . I fucked a lot of girls. Never had real pleasure but it wasnt bad. Nobody would say there was something feminine in me. I was going in the gym and i developed nice muscles.When i started university i lost a lot of weight . I was not eating well and almost didnt sleep. It was a hard programme and i wanted maximum grades. I became 63 kilos. Having slim body made me think of my old desires. I started mastrubating on gay and sissy porn, wearing panties and putting make up. Even though i lost weight my butt was still round and nice and my thights looked bigger comparing my now slimmer upper part. With females clothes i looked really hot. I made registration in a website for people who are looking for sex. I made myself photos and uploaded them. A lot of men texted me and begged me to meet. But i never was brave enough to do something. I was mastrubating and after i cummed i hated myself. One day i deleted my registration and threw my female clothes. After some time i bought some again and did a registration again. This repeated maybe 10 times and i never met someone. But i still dream about it. I want it a lot but i am too afraid to lose my family and friends.I dream about a real man bigger than me with a big dick who fucks me and makes me his girl. I want someone to make me feel like a girl but i dont know if i will ever have the courage to make a step.

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